Are you guilty?

I have decided that I will stop feeling guilty for being tired. I will stop feeling guilty for sitting quietly alone in order to regain myself. I will stop feeling guilty for asking for help. I will stop feeling guilty for refusing to be superwoman. I will stop feeling guilty for not allowing myself to disappear.

Today is the last day that I feel guilt for being me.

Moms are over the top

As I meet different moms in different places and situations, I wonder how many of them have it together. How many Leave it to Beaver families or Cosby show kids are really out there? Do our children crave the Ralph Lauren pants that we spend hours looking for only for them to go to school to splash purple pant on?!

Do they really care if they are accepted into that elite prep school that 500 5 year olds paid $300 application fees for only 30 to be accepted. Will their life be ruined because they are forced to go to public school among the commoners? :)

Is it our own insecurities or wants that we push upon our children and brain wash ourselves to thinking that they are what's best for children?

Are we caught in this war amongest moms, friends and neighbors for bragging rights that are kids attend the best piano, ballet, middle school, guitar lesson, karate, horse back riding and golf that our city provides? When are kids only want to spend 15 minutes watching Nick.

Are we going over board and over working our selves carpooling, waiting in line and spending countless dollars when all we should do is stop and love our kids and our selves? Are moms over the top? Are you?

Friendship in marriage

HMMM what is a great husband? One who provides financially? One who helps with the kids? One who is loving? or all of the above. Do we have these standards for greatness that we don't live up to for ourselves? I wonder all the time... do I anticipate more from him than he anticipates from me?

I guess it would be easier if there was a book of who does what ..but knowing 2007 women we would rebel that book as sexist and old timey. LOL

I think there has to be a balance of friendship between a husband and wife and then the everyday responsibilities of hubands and wives. Remember when you first were dating and it was all good because you were friends. You had no children no bills you just lived and enjoyed each other. If something came up that made you angry you went separate ways until one of you cooled off.

Do we loose friendship when we say I DO?

Diva

I really am a good mother. I just have diva syndrome. I want what I want now and that it is it in a nut shell. You know how it was before kids. Society makes it worse with all this stuff I mean come on. I have a cell phone with email and all kinds of gadgets. Half the time I dont even know what to do with it.

yet, I enjoy keeping up not with the JONES but with me. You know my own image of perfect. I want people to keep up with me and desire to be me. I know that is so selfish and I need prayer. But it is my thoughts. HMMMM

Well Mommies I must go now. I hope I am not getting boring. Notice I am getting better. My doctors will say my medication is working I say that I am just better because I am me.

Love

VogueMadre

HELP

IF I DONT GET some help in this house. I am going to jump. I love my kids but i NEED HELP. I am not the mommy type. I need help HELP HELP!!!

Not a lot to say today

I am sorry for being so bitchy and depressing. Today I am just kind of at a stand still. But I am still here.